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Some overdue pictures below :


My Birthday Cake This Year. Credits to My Boyfriend!


Taken at Baby's house on my Birthday. Heehee :)


Met up with Angie. She came to my house and slacked then we met up with Shuling to Bugis to pray. My lot which I had wasn't that good lor. Got to be more careful when I am doing anything these few months. Then Angie accompanied me to Wheel lock place to do my waxing. Haha she waited for almost one hour lor, so sorry =( Then accompanied her to her previous work place to collect her stuffs then slacked awhile at town then went home. Met up with Baby aftermath, then went to Tanjong Rhu awhile. Bought Prawn Mee for supper at Lavender food centre then home sweet home.

Yesterday worked from 8.30am to 7.30pm. Shag~ But relax la no much customers. After that went to Compass Point for dinner then took bus home.

Later meeting Ying for lunch then I will be going to ssdc =D Please bless me!

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO ME! : ) 

Tonight going to Babyface again. Heehee, I will not get drunk this time round. Lols =P

Yesterday Baby gave me a small surprised. He bought me a heart shape birthday cake and celebrated with me on the dot in his room. At first he bluffed me that he got stomachache, then 12am he brought the cake into his room while I was stoning on the chair. Nevertheless I was overjoyed, kept on hugging him and saying thank you. Haha =D Thank you for everything Baby!

WO AI NI =)
Shall update some photos soon. Stay tune!

Blasting TECHNO now because my downstairs malay wedding is FUCKING noisy lah!

Yesterday had a very very ''GREAT'' night, because it's my first time I drank and I vomitted! What's more? I vomitted into the rock glasses. HAHAHAHAS! Looks like a new martell lor =.= Thanks to those who came down last night. Really appreciate alot though all cash running low but still made your effort down :)

Bf and me had some tiffs again and again. Because he dislike me to drink and I dislike him to go races. WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When can this really stop man, I really hate QUARRELS!

Head is still spinning now and I feel like vomitting again.

Star awards later, and also PIZZA feast with Sister =DD

Today Baby accompanied me to Sim Lim Square and get my Pink I-pod Nano! : ) It's my birthday present from my family members. Thank you so much! Then we went to Beach Road to have our dinner. I had my favourite Chilli Mee which I ate it since I was a very small girl. Haha! But the taste is really different from last time. Maybe because now the boss hand over his business to his son then the style of cooking is different too :(

Yesterday met up with Darling then we went for our interview. Aftermath, cabbed down to Min Min house to slack awhile. Haha, had her ah ma's delicious Sarawak Laksa. *Yummy*, si bei UPZ lor. Haha. Then around 2plus me and Darling headed over to Jln Lengkok for our eyebrown threading. Baby came to fetch me there then I accompanied him to town to get his perfume and Gucci wallet. Someone is crazy over labels now. Lols! =D

Anyway, I got the job already but tomorrow I am calling back to the company and tell them I got a better offer. But need to wait until June then I will be confirm as a contract staff with Lhub. I hope everything goes well for me. Best of luck, Ah Joy =]

BABYFACE this coming Saturday! Shall see my few darlings and friends turning up. It's sort of a night celebrating mine, Darling's one and also Jui Lim's birthday. I hope everything will turns out well and everyone will enjoy their night! Heehee.. I am going to dress up nicely and maybe go salon to do my hair.

Tomorrow going to work the last JPE event, hope it will not be so busy as on Monday.

Alrights, that's all for today.

Shall update again!

Cheers ^^

Getting busier and busier everyday now. Today is the most tiring day for JPE event, tag team with Jasmine and everything goes well : ) 

Tomorrow morning will be going for an interview at TPY with darling, most probably if I find the pay is reasonable and the environment is good, I will probably accept the job. Haha, thanks to Ade for her help. Last Saturday went to ECP, experienced my first flea market and it went so horrible. Business is bad and the weather is bad too. Boyfriend had a hard time with me there, but I do appreciate that he really accompanied me without leaving me there alone. Haha =D Love you my teddy bear!

This coming Saturday I am going to be super busy I guess. I hope I will not sleep while I am working with Sunny.

Waiting for Sister to reach downstairs then I going to have dinner with her. She just smsed me and told me she was being hit by an indian modern man. Fuck man, was so angry after reading her smses. I will curse that man go out kana bang by car. My sister accidentally stepped on your fucking foot and you can just slap her back and ask her to watch out. OMG~ Do you know what's law? My sister can say that you molest her in the public lor. Knn. If I am there, I sure scold and shout and step you foot even harder till police come and let's see who will be the one who will be kana caught. 

Counting down to my 20th birthday, nothing special anyway.

Will update more then.

Missing my girlfriends.

我最幸福的事 - Fate brought us together.

I have just woke up from my random dreams which I've dream just now. I dream about so many things, which I hardly can open my eyes to wake myself up.

These few days again and again, having small tiffs with him. I guess he is really tired already, same goes to me. I just couldn't understand what went wrong between us. Mis-communication breakdown I guess, and also attitudes.But one thing which is the most hurtful thing, I dislike being compared to someone whom I don't know and someone whom I think isn't perfect too. He can jolly well compare with me to his friend's girlfriend. Regardless of my dressing and my past. Really feel so..... the feeling I really don't know how to describe. I have cut down in smoking, didn't even went to think about it even I am stress now. & a very long I didn't even went to any pubs or clubs to drink. If you think that your ideal girl I am not suitable to be, then don't hurt me again. I just don't understand.

I really hope everything could be so perfect. I really hope sometimes my naggings and concern are really helpful. But maybe I was wrong, I caused and spoilt the whole thing myself. Everytime I am to be blame for everything. I hate myself. Hardly can I find someone to rant out all my feelings. Hardly I can find someone to talk to everytime when I am down. I love you, love you like no one else does. I can do anything for you just to make you happy. Why can't you just realise that? I know you have been giving in alot to me, same goes to me. I am feeling so miserable everyday but I acted to be ''happy'' outside in order not to let people worry for me.

Sometimes I really feel like leaving this world, so that my pain will be gone.

I guess you'll feel better too. Don't regret when I am really gone one day. I mean it.

My birthday is coming... Three more weeks I guess, don't know where to celebrate too. :(

Planning to go overseas but money quite tight now.

How I wish I can have a memorable birthday this year. Or maybe just stay at home and sleep like what my mum says. Haha =D I guess it's a good idea.

These few days the weather is super hot and warm. Hardly can fall asleep at night! :((

Just a thing which always stuck in my mind :

How do you really cherish someone? If you really cherish the person so well, does he/she knows you really have the intention that you are really putting so much effort into him/her? Does he/she really understand what you actually want from him/her?

Words only can be said, but actions are more important than anything it can be.

I really hope somehow you will feel and appreciate what I've done for you.

If one day I am really gone, I hope you wouldn't said so many regrets to yourself for not cherishing me in the past.

Most importantly is I am grateful that God grant you to me again.

Let's cherish the moments being together & I hope no more quarrels anymore.

Some says : Being loved is better than loving someone.

Now I realize this phrase is really true.

Good night readers, off to bed!

It's the month of April! One more month to go... counting down to my 20th birthday :)
Now I am addicted to Malay songs already, especially the song ''Aku Cinta Padamu'' by Siti Nurhaliza.

Woke up quite early in the morning, met up with Yan Ting around 9plus then we had our breakfast at Amk Central. Took a bus down to Aunty's wake to attend her last day funeral and also accompanied her to walk her last journey with her beloved family and friends. It was a very sad scenario, and I couldn't control my tears at all when the band started to play those sad songs. I miss Aunty a lot suddenly :( I miss her laughter, her jokes, and... and... EVERY happy memories with her. Was at Guang Ming Shan Temple till around 12plus and everything ended. 

Aftermath, me and Yan Ting headed to town. Had our waxing appointment at Paragon. Then went around shopping for stuffs, hehe.. Bit budget now adays so I only bought a few things. Has sushi tei for our lunch, the fried rice we've ordered was super delicious =DDD

Oh friday is reaching and I will be working!~

& He is going to Switzerland for his three months on job training =( What am I going to do? Awwww~ Will super miss him lor.

&&&& I hate those girl friends of his who loves to call him and asked him to go out in the middle of the night to sit bike. Especially those small girls.

&&& I love going out with YAN TING :)



LOVE LOVE <3

Just received information that Aunty Rose had left this world last night at her home =( I felt... felt so sad after hearing this news of her. Later will be going down to her funeral to pay her last respect. I got no words to describe how I'm feeling now. Just saw her few months backed only at AMK Hub, still laughing and joking with me. Always wanted to ask her and her daughter out for dinner, but always got no time. Now no need to ask already, it's always too late. I will miss you lots Aunty, you are the best Aunty whom I ever known. You guided me, you are helpful to me, you are just like my second mother to me during working times in Bugis. I wish you the very best in another world of yours, and I hope in your next life we can be able to meet again.

I got nothing much to say...

Can someone comfort me?

Will you? I guess you don't even bother to contact me.

Take care then..

I am in love with this song now call ''The Climb'' =D Superb nice and meaningful~

I feel that I am falling sick soon :( How sad it could be! I still have to work more part time jobs if not I going to broke soon. Anyway, I've decided to be as a contract staff with my current part time job. Hope the pay and benefits are good!

These few days me and him don't know why, kept on having cold war and quarrels. VERY VERY SICK OF IT!

Maybe we both just don't understand each other well, maybe we both really don't know how to communicate well. The more he says, the more I dislike. The more the things I do, the more he dislike. Sigh~ Can anyone teach me how am I suppose to do? I really wish nothing could happen. These kind of things really can affect the relationship.

Was planning to go Escape with him, but guess also never go already.

Zzzzzz....

Life is really bored. Sometimes how I wish I could have leave this world peacefully without any sorrows and pain.

I am hurt, I am sad. I am not the ''joy-able'' girl anymore =((

 I just wonder why am I so stupid and stubborn, why am I always the one overcoming everything. I don't like to push blames around. Sometimes I just need someone to give me a hand, I am tired to do all these myself. I feel so alone...

How I wish my life could be like a rainbow, full of C O L O U R S

Somehow I feel there's really someone whom can understand me so well.

Sometimes I feel so lonely, so alone.

Somewhere I feel I am into a different world from others, so far away~

Somehow I feel no one can be trusted.

Sometimes I feel people take me for granted.

Somehow I feel I shouldn't treat people so good, afterall I only gain troubles.

Somehow....

Hais...

I got so much to rant out of my heart :(

Today is my daddy's birthday! Went down to had dinner together as part of his birthday celebration. Mikal and his family was just beside my table (:

I've been rotting at home for two days? Baby has started working, tomorrow is his off day! Yay~ He's accompanying me down to far east to collect my wallet. Well, actually we seldom go out together like going shopping because I always feel that he is kinda bored when I am shopping for my stuffs and co. So I seldom request him to go out shopping with me. Haha =D 

Had been backed to Ntuc Learning Hub to work part time, well everything is the same as last time just that there are more and more courses now and must memorize them. Next week my schedule was planned to work from Monday to Friday, aiyah better than nothing. Least next month there's some money depositing into my bank account =P

Yan Ting and Me was planning to open a small shop at Bugis Street. So if everything is ok, we'll travel to overseas to take and choose stocks. Now I really know what I like. Be own boss is always the best, nobody controls what you do. Own time own target and also it's a small investment too. So meanwhile I am praying hard to get a full time job for myself, then save more money to get more pretty and lovely clothes and stuffs to sell to people next time =)

God bless me!

I miss my darling Chanel too, see you next week!

Today it's the 18th of the month again, it's also me and him have been together for 7th months =( Actually it was to be a happy occasion for me but it turned out to be an unpleasant one again. I really hate myself a lot, partly because of my temper and attitude. It's not easy for a couple to be so sweet together. I didn't expect everything turns out to be like this. Couples always do encounter many quarrels, misunderstandings and also do have times which are really sweet.

It's been years, from the day I start to know you. We've been together for one month and you left me alone silently. Memories and words which you've said were still kept in my heart every second every minute I go. Many things I have been tolerating and keeping it to myself, telling myself I must be strong and wishing you the very best just to see you happily enjoying your life that's all. I told myself you will sure come back to me by my side one day and I will do my best to give you my care and concern. I don't know if you've realized that a not, and I don't know if you really know how much you are meant to me. You are the first guy ever in my life I am willing to do all these things to. Throughout these years, I've been suffering a lot, trying to make myself to forget you. I did told myself I must let go but you always give me false hopes which I ever can predict before you say anything. People scold me stubborn, scold me stupid, scold my silly to do such things. They told me you will never come back to my life again.

Nevertheless, years later suddenly you keep in contact back with me, and one night on the 18 Aug 08, you've asked me to be back with you. I was speechless but in my heart was filled with happiness and joy. I thanked god for granting my wish, I cannot imagine that you would say this to me. Day by day pass by, first two months we were so sweet together, just like every newly couples will be. After the honey moon period, I knew something could happened. Sweet sour bitter hot, everything we've been through. Tears flowing together too. Everyone has a different character, I got my own and you got yours. It's really hard to find a partner whom you can really happy with, really feel comfortable with, and really feel suitable with. One must either give and take if not the hard work will be all gone.

Sometimes I really feel like letting go, but I will regret if I do so. I don't wish to leave, I don't wish my dream will be destroyed just because of trival matters. I am really tired, really don't wish to think so much. I just want you to be my last love, just because of this, I am always trying to patch things back and hold on this relationship in order to maintain the sweetness we used to have in the past. I've done really so much for you, but just that you didn't realized at all.

Sometimes I will think a lot, and I will feel are you taking me for granted? 

Things started to change, and I feel that you have changed too. You are no longer the man I used to know in the past. Now I have to overcome every circumstances which we have meet. I need to know more about you this new man. I tried to control my temper but always, I failed. I tried to do things which will satisfy you, but yet I failed. The more things I do, failure will just come right infront of me.

Do you know how much you are really meant to me? When we quarrel, I can feel that my heart really aches and I feel like hugging you tightly and tell you ''Hey dear lets stop all these, I am really tired and sick of it. I just want you to understand me more and concern me more". I don't demand anything from you, all I want is you to be happy. 

When I see you, I always feel like crying. I'm not a selfish person. If one day you really feel that hey actually we are only meant to be friends not lovers, I can understand. I will let go of you to let you fly as high as you want. I can only look at you from below and whispering to myself that you're always the one I love the most, not I have set you free. I wish you all the best, find someone really suits you the most and stay everlasting with her. Thanks for giving me all the memories, I will treasure it hard and well.

I hope that once you've read this you will understand how much I really love you. Not a 100% but a 101% thing. I don't use words to describe but actions.

Lastly, happy seven months bf.

I am feeling super duper boring everyday! I am getting lazier and lazier everyday too because I am not working.

Shall update about what's happening these few days :

Tuesday, went in to JB with Min Min. Did our nails and of course, shopping la! =) Had a super fun and tiring day with her. More trips please Darling~ Anyway, it's the first time I went out of Singapore with friends lor, she's the first one, so must be proud of yourself hoh Darling! 

Some pictures below with her :


Wa lao eh, my hair bit messy la!


The cute Min Min =x


& the cute Ah Joy =DD


This is the pathetic dried mee siam which I ate, LOLS!

Wednesday, met up with Min Min, Yan Ting and her friend for our interview at Sony Ericsson. My interview was the longest with the lady boss. Hahas. But anyway, only Yan Ting and her friend received calls from them for job training. For me, think I must wait till April or June then can start working in the retail department. Hope to get a sales job, don't want to waste my strong point. But this time round I got to pair up with Jolin, hopefully there will be no conflicts or quarrels among us as her strong point is doing sales too. Hmms, after interview Min Min accompanied me to Far East to bring my wallet for servicing. Walked around at town then around 6plus we went backed home. Went to accompany Baby awhile then I went backed home.

Yesterday, waited for the rich girl Jolin to wake up lor and she was late for half an hour! So her punishment was to treat me eat good food. Lols! So bad of me =x Anyway, accompanied her to town awhile then went to Bishan. Baby was there waiting for me then we went backed to his house awhile. He sent me backed home aftermath. Had some small tiffs again last night, but was okay already.

I am going to rot soon, God please grant my wish! I want a job which I really like.

=] Smoking time~

Don't know why I always cannot get to sleep for long hours though I'm tired. Maybe Bi's snoring annoyed me that's why I was fully awake =x Ordered a BB cream from Wen, so excited to use it once I've got it. Heard that it's really cool. Haha, got to try out once then I'll know is it really that good. 

Next Wednesday it's my basic theory test again =.= 8th time I'm taking it. F*** hate to take it cause I know I confirm fail again. But I hope I really can pass, because I really want to drive a car. This time round I'll be going to the trial test first. Hope everything's going smoothly :)

Yesterday met up with Jolin, then went to Panjang with her. Slacked and ate there, around 1am Bi came to fetch me home. I've decided to work at Sony Ericsson since I am so free. Lols, and together with Yan Ting and Min Min. Hope it's going to be fun working with my girls. Wednesday will go down for an interview. All the best =D

I'm feeling so bored now adays, feel like going to club luh! 

& I heard some bitches acting big outside, searching for trouble. Ass itchy huh? Ask your papa scratch for you la pundeh~ Not happy just come la! 

Yesterday woke up early, went out around 9am to meet Min Min. Had our breakfast at 925, then we cabbed down to Mandai to pray Hui Hui. As ever, she's our darling, our friend always and forever she will be. Hope she's still as happy as she is, she's still as pretty as she is in the other world. Miss her really so much, after visiting her, my heart really feels more relieved :) Wanted to pray Yao Ming too but we had the wrong information -.- So we went to Bishan and Kranji, then home sweet home aftermath. Shag & tired... :(

Job hunting was indeed a very tired one. So I rather give up hunting for jobs first. Regret? Ya, but what can I do? Hahas =D This road is choosen by me, I have to use my own hands to hold them up but not letting go. I believe one day I can make it! Jiayou-Ah Joy!

Sometimes I keep on have that weird feeling, that feeling which I really don't want it to happen in my life. Shall keep it in my heart as a secret for myself.

Now adays I am feeling more and more tired as before. I need a break~

Finally, I can have time to accompany my families, my darlings and my boyfriend. But, most importantly is to get a job as well. Had been sending so many resumes to agencies, but yet did not received many calls from them.

Yesterday went backed to office as my Sister needs to sign some documents on behalf for my ex-company. Then met up with Sun first at National Library Board, had some deserts and fries at Miss Clarity Cafe. Aftermath, walked over to Parco to meet Bee. Accompanied her to get her stuffs then we headed down to Chinatown. Celebrated Sun's advanced birthday celebration at "Yum Cha". Oh we had really so much food man, I love the most was the chilli crabs. Hohoho =D Sang birthday song for him, had the delicious banana chocolate cake from Awfully Chococlate.

Got myself a yellow long sleeve top from This Fashion. Really love it alot! =) Took trained backed to Yishun. Bee headed home, so we went to Partyworld for ktv-ing session. Got ourselves really so HIGH la! Hahas, I hope my beloved cousin enjoyed his day with us. Wishing you all the best and a happy aging day!



This morning went to pray the God Tiger and Tai Shui with my family. Hehe, I felt much better after praying. I hope Tai Shui will bless me to get a job quickly and also blessing my family and friends good health.

Feeling so tired now! Currently doing some research on clothes too.. Will probably be opening a blogshop soon. Stay tune =]

Some overdue pictures below taken at Conrad Hotel :


Me and Daniel Shankar.


Me and Ricco.


Me and Pearly.


Esther and Me.


BB and Me.


Me, Rita, Jeanette & Charmaine.


Thanks to Alan Beasley & Directors for this lovely Sunflowers.


Thanks to Conrad Hotel's banquet team for this cute little Conrad Bear.

Sometimes I just wonder did I made a right choice? Can I say the word "regret'? Is it too late to say this?

Hahas, maybe I should really move on. Spend more time with my beloved sister and my family as well.

Thank you people for reading my blog (:

Four more months and Kor is coming out, I am so happy to see him soon.

Anyone got job intro me?